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[oldfashionedloverboyston]

it feels so silly that i sobbed after not getting the promotion.
i told myself (and everyone else) that i wasn't going to get my hopes up even though i've wanted this position since my first week in this office, because i didn't want to be too upset if i didn't get it.
but as i waited longer and longer to find out, i found those hopes had built ladders out of the twigs in my lungs and boy were they climbing.

honestly, my feedback was amazing. i should've gotten the job. im so confident that i can do it and i can give them the answers they want, i just...didn't this time. i focused too much on one part of the job that is a huge thing, but i didn't show them i knew all of the smaller, day-to-day parts too.

i will go for it next time, and i'll hopefully do better, but i don't know when that will be.

and for now that doesn't matter. because honestly im kinda heartbroken and im going to spend my lunch crying some more.

Comments

[nebulastral]

it's totally reasonable to feel upset when something like this happens <3 you worked really hard, and i'm glad you at least got good feedback and feel confident applying again! take time to fall back and regroup, you're gonna come back from this and be ready to take on the next thing.

[oldfashionedloverboyston]

i only just saw this, but thank you bab!