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Jan. 14th, 2019 03:36 pmit feels so silly that i sobbed after not getting the promotion.
i told myself (and everyone else) that i wasn't going to get my hopes up even though i've wanted this position since my first week in this office, because i didn't want to be too upset if i didn't get it.
but as i waited longer and longer to find out, i found those hopes had built ladders out of the twigs in my lungs and boy were they climbing.
honestly, my feedback was amazing. i should've gotten the job. im so confident that i can do it and i can give them the answers they want, i just...didn't this time. i focused too much on one part of the job that is a huge thing, but i didn't show them i knew all of the smaller, day-to-day parts too.
i will go for it next time, and i'll hopefully do better, but i don't know when that will be.
and for now that doesn't matter. because honestly im kinda heartbroken and im going to spend my lunch crying some more.
i told myself (and everyone else) that i wasn't going to get my hopes up even though i've wanted this position since my first week in this office, because i didn't want to be too upset if i didn't get it.
but as i waited longer and longer to find out, i found those hopes had built ladders out of the twigs in my lungs and boy were they climbing.
honestly, my feedback was amazing. i should've gotten the job. im so confident that i can do it and i can give them the answers they want, i just...didn't this time. i focused too much on one part of the job that is a huge thing, but i didn't show them i knew all of the smaller, day-to-day parts too.
i will go for it next time, and i'll hopefully do better, but i don't know when that will be.
and for now that doesn't matter. because honestly im kinda heartbroken and im going to spend my lunch crying some more.
